Do you ever feel like you have no life? That you're a loser who does nothing? Sometimes I feel like that. I am a stay-at-home mom...and I am very blessed that I can be home to raise my children. I truly wouldn't want it any other way. With being a stay-at-home mom come some boring days where things are far from fulfilling.
I think that I need more hobbies, or to at least to work on my current hobbies. I do enjoy toll painting and I have been trying to sew more. I guess I could do more of these things to help make my days more enjoyable. I have friends, but I feel like I don't see them enough. I really should set up play dates more. The days are always more fun when we have a play date. Tuesdays and Thursdays are generally pretty good because Tyler has preschool and so we are out of the house until 11:30. I do try and do service for others (at least stuff that I can do with two small children), but that doesn't happen as much as I would like either. My current calling is such that I don't do much until about a week before the activity and then I am pretty busy, but before that it is only maybe once a month meetings. I just feel like I need more...not like a job...but something.
We are currently trying to get pregnant (about 3 months now) and so I know that things will be different when that happens and then for sure when I have the baby, but it is hard to know how long it will take. I am trying not to get discouraged, but that is hard too. Maybe that is what is triggering these current feelings I am having. With turning 30 and only having one ovary I don't know how these things are affecting my body. I have lost weight which is good, but I still have a lot more to go. I got pregnant with Tyler and Josh while I was heavier, so that really isn't my main concern. I am sure it will happen when it is suppose to and I need to learn more patience. It is funny how when you don't want to get pregnant you are glad when you get your period each month, then as soon as you are ready to be pregnant getting your period is like the worst thing ever. I am being way too dramatic. All in good time.
3 comments:
I get stuck in my own little box, too. We live in a neighborhood with so many people around us, but yet it seems that we all just go about each day doing our own thing. We always say "we should get together," but the actual doing doesn't happen. I hate it, and it gives me a lonely feeling as well. The nice thing is that once it is warm, we all seem to be outside more and actually visit with neighbors when we are all out and about.
You are doing the most important work EVER! This is what life is all about. NOT hobbies or playdates. You are AMAZING and a great sister and I love you so much!
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