Crazy times

Things have been a little crazy since I last blogged. Tony had to work nights this past week at work, so that made it really hard for me to have extra time to blog or do much of anything. Tyler got sick and threw up like 7 times one night this week, while Tony was at work and I was by my self. That really sucked. I think that he had an old yogurt that made him sick. Which is good because I was worried that Josh could get sick too.
I had a really hard time this past week. I got really emotional in the evenings while Tony was at work. I think it was because that is when I am most tired and with no adults to talk to, my mind kind of slows down and I was JUST SO TIRED! Josh is also most fussy at nights and having to try and put Tyler down for the night and deal with Josh at the same time was hard. PLUS, I am still way hormonal from having the baby, so I cry for dumb things (okay so I am a girl and do that with or without being pregnant). I did call some of my friends on Wednesday and Thursday and that really helped. A couple of my friends from my ward came over and visited and that helped too. So I will just have to do things like that when Tony has to work nights or I start getting down.
It is funny how anxious I get some times. Like I don't know how I will deal with the future...it is weird. I had the same thing after I had Tyler. A little baby blues I guess. I know it is the hormone's and I just want to make sure that it doesn't get worse and turn into postpartum depression. I know that talking helps, so I need to make sure and talk to people, especially other mom's, and stay positive. A Pepsi would probably also help too. I little caffeine to give me a little kick in the afternoons. It is funny how much having a baby changes everything, literally everything.

My boys...that sounds good.

Things are going pretty good these days. We are starting to get into a routine and for the most part things are good. We had some family in town this past weekend and it was lots of fun having them here. Tyler loves playing with the boys and I always love chatting with my cousins. I had a cousin get sealed on Tuesday and it was great seeing the Grover's and being able to go to the sealing. I guess there are benefits of not producing enough milk, then you can take your kids to grandma's with a bottle and then go do something by your self. I am trying to think of the good things with not being able to nurse well, that way it doesn't totally bum me out. But because of that I got to go to the sealing, and it was beautiful.
Today I had to take Joshua to the doctors because at his two week appointment he hadn't gotten back up to his birth weight, so she wanted to make sure he was gaining weight okay. Well, he gained weight, a lot of weight. He weighed in at 9 pounds. A week ago he was 7 pound 13 ounces. She said I wasn't feeding him enough, and now I am feeding him too much. I can't win. But she also said that he looked a little tongue tied, so she cut his little skin under his tongue. She said that maybe that is why he doesn't latch very well. I guess we will see if he starts nursing a little better. You totally forget how tiring it is waking up every two to three hours to feed a baby. I am so very tired at nights. It isn't too bad during the day because I have so much to do and get my second wind, but during the night is hard stuff. Luckily Tony's last day of work for the week is tomorrow, so he will be able to help out more during the nights. That will be nice...I can't wait.