I Lost Josh

Yesterday we had an activity at my ward building, outside at the pavilion and for the most part it was a lot of fun.  It was lots of fun until I couldn't find Josh.  He was pouting on the bench across the field where I was sitting, but I had my eye on him.  I was holding my friends cute baby and then Sherri called so I didn't check on him as much as I should have.  I saw him walking towards me and so I thought he was coming back over to where we all were sitting.  Then a couple minutes later I looked again and didn't see him, but figured he was just close by somewhere.  Then a couple minutes later I looked again and I still didn't see him.  So I hung up with Sherri and gave the baby back to his sweet momma and then went looking for Josh.
I called his name over and over and then I went and looked in the church to see if he went in there to go to the bathroom or just hangout in there.  The lights were out in the church so I was pretty sure he wouldn't be hanging out in there because he is kind of scared of the dark.  I called out for Josh and checked the bathrooms anyway.  No response.  I was trying to stay calm, but by this time it was getting harder to keep my emotions in check.  I looked around and started to cry with worry.  Where would he have gone? 
I came back out to where all the ladies and kids where and Josh was still no where to be found.  One lady was walking around the baseball field to see if he was hiding somewhere and then two ladies got into their cars to see if they could find him in the neighborhood, or maybe at my home.  Someone asked if Josh would walk home, and I said no.  Surely Josh knew better then just to leave and walk home...so I thought.  One of the sisters who was driving around called me saying she found Josh almost to my house as he was walking home.  He wouldn't get into her car, so that was good, so the other sister stayed with him until I could get home.
I didn't have my car because it was in the shop, so I rode home with Gwen.  I got a ride from Marissa and it was so nice of the ladies to drive around and help me find Josh.  I asked Josh what he was doing and he told me that he wanted to come home.  I told him that I was very scared that I couldn't find him and Josh told me he wasn't scared at all.  Gee, that didn't really make me feel any better.  I tried to make him understand that he could have been taken by a stranger or something really bad and he better not ever do that again.
I never would have thought Josh would have just left an activity and walk home all by himself.  I was grateful that he knew the way home and that we had walked that way many times before.  I just felt like the worst mother in the world, who looses their kid?  I hope that I never have to experience that again, it was the worst.