I am pretty sure that I have miscarried the sack and whatever else was there earlier today. I was hoping that I wouldn't do it while Tony was at work and it was just me and the kids, but that is exactly what happened.
Things started really happening about 9:30 am and lasted until about 12:00 pm. I had some major contractions and cramping off and on. Their were a couple times that it hurt so bad I couldn't help but start to cry a little bit. Sweet Tyler was very helpful to me. He could tell that I was in a lot of pain and he would come and give me a big hug and kiss. One time he even said a prayer for me as soon as he saw that I was in pain. He is such a sweet kid and I am so lucky to have him. Tony wasn't any help to me since he was gone and didn't really check up on me, so good thing I at least had Tyler to show me some love and concern.
My sweet neighbor, Dona, brought us some yummy cookies and a cinnamon loaf. She came right when I was in the thick of things and it was nice to know that she was thinking of me and went out of her way to show me her love with goodies. It's nice to have good neighbors who are even more thoughtful then family, since I haven't heard from any of mine today. I know that they have their own lives, but I thought that I would get at least a text from someone to see how I was doing...I guess I expect too much out of my family. I did hear from Tony's mom last night and she called Tony tonight and asked about me, so that's was nice.
I feel like Tony is just pretending like nothing is happening, or maybe he really just doesn't care. He's not sensitive to what I am going through at all. I think that he is glad that this happened because he didn't want another kid...I don't know...I am just full of crazy lady emotions.
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I had no idea about all of this, but I'm sorry you have to go through it! I hope you get feeling back to normal really soon.
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