Frustrations

Sometimes I get so frustrated at myself, my kids, my husband, my house...pretty much everything. That is when the not-so-patient mom comes out. I don't like that mom so much. I like the mom that thinks "I know that I have told you the same thing forty times, but I will tell you again nice and sweat." I am generally good the first three or four times, then I get frustrated.

I cleaned the windows and blinds in my front room today. It went well for the most part until Josh woke up from his nap and was really fussy for a couple of hours. Of course at that same time is when Tyler decided that he didn't need to listen to me and thought that he could just do whatever he wanted...frustrating. I admit it...I yelled...I put him in time out...a couple times...I let Josh cry a little longer then I normally would have...and did those things do anything? Did Tyler learn from any of it? Did Josh suffer for crying for five minutes? Who knows? That is frustrating.
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Tony has been working on putting in a fence. I am very excited to have a fenced it yard! However, because of the building of the fence, he comes home from work and then goes outside to work on the fence. So then I am still stuck inside (or outside in the cold, if I wish) with the boys. Now I want the fence done, but I also need a break from being stuck in the house all day with boys. Tony can't build the fence AND take care of the boys (mainly Josh is the one that needs taken care of) at the same time...but that is what I would like to happen...the fence to be done and me to have a break...frustrating. Also it is costing a lot more then I thought it would to do this whole fence project. I knew that it would probably be more money then Tony told me, but (as with all projects) there are just more and more things that are coming up that cost money. That frustrates me.

I have been having a really hard time lately with my weight. I know that I need to do something, but I have ZERO motivation. This is effecting my self esteem and I need to do something soon to get me on the right path...but what? Frustrating. What will work for me and my family? What can I do that isn't a ton of money, that isn't a fad diet, that I will want to do and not feel like I am abandoning my children? I just need to get my motivation...but for some reason I am having a really hard time finding that motivation...REALLY FRUSTRATING!!!