Here are my random thoughts for tonight:
* I am more then ready for Tony to get a different job. He works hard and deserves it. He could use the change and we could use the money. I truly can't wait for it to happen for him.
* I am tired. Josh hasn't been the best sleeper lately and it is having its toll on me.
* I have been going walking with Josh and my mom while Tyler is at preschool and I have really enjoyed it. It will be a sad day when it is too cold to go on walks.
* I really do love my family and Tony's family. I love spending time with them and knowing that they are there for me and that I am here for them too. It is a nice feeling. I wish all my family lived close so that I could see them more often.
* BYU isn't playing very good this season. Not such a good thing to do right before you become independent, but every team has re-building seasons every now and then. Win or loose I will always be a BYU fan and be cheering loud and proud for them!
* Loosing my job has made me a more humble person - so that is good. I have learned to do will less and still be just fine. I am still me without my job title, my friends and family still love me, and most of all...I still love me. Having my "career" didn't define who I am...how I live my life will do that.
* I am not perfect. My kids are not perfect. My house is not perfect...and that is okay!
* Sometimes stuff happens and you don't know why, you may never know why, but it is all for a purpose...I need to trust that!
* FAITH...beyond patience I need to have faith...Heavenly Father doth provide...but it is on His time...not mine!
* I really like being the funny one. I like when people laugh at my comments and jokes. I think that I am freaking hilarious....is that such a bad thing? I think that a lot of that has to do with my weight (I may not be skinny but I am funny). Maybe I need to see a shrink?
* You really are the best parent before you have children. I remember thinking that I would or wouldn't do so many different things before I had kids and totally judged moms for doing or not doing those things...oh how dumb I was. It is totally different when you have your own kids! I have repented of my evil ways.
* I guess that is enough of my thoughts for one night. Last thought. I know that my Heavenly Father lives and that his son Jesus Christ died on the cross and was resurrected for you and me. I know that through our Heavenly Father and Christ all things are possible. Having children has helped me understand just a tiny bit the relationship between Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. How hard it had to have been for Heavenly Father to see his son on that cross...how blessed I am to know these things!!!