Gotta love being sick

Not really, you gotta hate being sick, it is no fun at all. I started feeling a little sick on Friday morning, so I made a doctors appointment for Saturday morning (the first available appointment). It was feeling mostly like a head cold, but with Tyler being sick I wanted to make sure and get whatever I had checked out before it got worse. I was feeling okay for most the day and even went to my parents with Josh to see my sister Wendy and her family.
Then that night I had a really hard night sleeping. I was freezing and then really hot and the my temperature was 102 degrees, it was miserable. So I went to my appointment and he said that I had a sinus infection. He said that it might be early signs of the flu, but he didn't think so and that if I did get it, that it wasn't that big of deal. So he made me a prescription for an antibiotic and a decongestant and I was on my way.
I feel a little better today then I did yesterday, but today I have more of the sneezes, running nose, and using LOTS and LOTS of tissues. Tony goes back to work tomorrow (the night shift) and I am worried about how I am going to handle both of the boys with me being sick and Tyler still getting over being sick. I think that I will go over to my parents and spend some time with them and my sister, but I am sure that it will be stressful with all those people. I guess we will see how it goes. I hope that going over there helps me, instead of gives me more stress. Tyler is usually a good kid, but he can be a trouble maker and I don't want to sit and yell at him the whole time because he is doing stuff that he shouldn't. Sometimes it is just easier to stay home. But I do want to see how well he will play with his cousins.
I sure can't believe that Thanksgiving is already this week. It seems like it is still October. It is amazing how fast time goes by, but then when you are in the moment it seems like it is so slow. Really got to enjoy the time that we have. I'll have to remember that.

H1N1 - Really???

So we have been having a really good week so far. On Saturday we went to Tony's parents to watch the BYU game and then his mom watched our kids so we could go to dinner and a movie to celebrate our 6 year anniversary. A couple of Tony's sisters kids were there and Tyler just loves playing with them. A couple of their siblings had strep, so they didn't go to grandmas. Then on Sunday one of the kids that Tyler played the most with on Saturday said that he wasn't feeling good. So his parents took him in and he had strep and croup.
So I was watching Tyler to see if he was getting symptoms of either of these things. On Tuesday night he started getting a fever and then had a really hard time sleeping. So I called his doctor and she said to bring him in, so I got an appointment for Wednesday afternoon. She did a strep test and it came back negative. She checked his ears and they were fine and then she asked if I wanted her to do a flu test. I figured since we were there and he was already miserable that we might as well. Well, she came back and said that the flu test came back positive. So I said "When you say flu, what do you mean?" and then she said the Swine Flu. I started crying, I couldn't believe it. I have tried to be so careful and not take my kids many places so that they wouldn't get it and here I was at the doctors for strep and it come back swine flu. She said that I should keep the baby away from Tyler. She suggested that I take Tyler to a grandparents house, but I couldn't ask anyone to take my sick kid so that they can get sick too.
So Tony called his boss and took the next couple of days off and he is taking care of Josh and I am taking care of Tyler. I really hope that I don't get it too, but since I was the one exposed to him all day I thought it would be best. He is doing pretty okay for being sick. Mostly wants me to hold him and that is okay. The main problem is that he HATES taking medicine. We try to force it down him and he just spits it back up. So I have been putting it in his drink and trying to make him drink it all. He gets the medicine much slower, but I just don't know what else to do. We have already wasted two doses of the Tamaflu because he spit it back up when we gave it to him. That is expensive stuff - $36 for Tyler's prescription. I hear that it works really good, so that makes it worth every penny. It has been a long night with a lot of up an downs and now Tyler is wide awake and so am I. I sure hope he takes a couple naps today and starts feeling better.
I also hope that my mom doesn't get sick because she had Tyler at her house on Tuesday while I was at work. I would feel really bad if she got sick. If he had shown any symptoms of being sick I wouldn't have even gone into work, but of course he was his happy self the whole day. Lets just hope and pray that Josh doesn't get sick -- that would be the worst!

Halloween, blessings, and more

Halloween was a lot of fun. Tyler and Josh both went as baseball players. I already had both outfits so it worked out pretty good. It was cheep and easy. The pictures are of the boys when we took them to my work for trick-or-treating on Friday. Tyler had a good time learning how to trick-or-treat and playing at my desk. It was also fun to show off Joshua. I hadn't taken him in yet, so that was fun. Then on Saturday Tony took Tyler to the wards truck-or-treat and then around to a couple of our neighbors. After that he helped us hand out candy. I think that he had more fun doing that then actually trick-or-treating. He was pretty funny, he gave the cute young girls around his age more candy then other people. He is such a little flirt, just like his daddy.

We blessed Josh last Sunday. It was very nice. Most of our families were there and we made a nice showing in the ward. Tony gave a great blessing and then after we had everyone over to our house for some refreshments. It was lots of fun. It made me really want a new house that has a big open area for lots of people to gather. Some day we hope to have a house with an open kitchen, dining room, and family room...some day. Josh looked so hansom in his white suit. He is 8 weeks hold today. I just can't believe how fast time goes by. Sometimes it seems so slow in the moment, but then you look back and see that you really need to cherish all the moments, good and bad. I love having two boys and they are teaching me so much.

Crazy times

Things have been a little crazy since I last blogged. Tony had to work nights this past week at work, so that made it really hard for me to have extra time to blog or do much of anything. Tyler got sick and threw up like 7 times one night this week, while Tony was at work and I was by my self. That really sucked. I think that he had an old yogurt that made him sick. Which is good because I was worried that Josh could get sick too.
I had a really hard time this past week. I got really emotional in the evenings while Tony was at work. I think it was because that is when I am most tired and with no adults to talk to, my mind kind of slows down and I was JUST SO TIRED! Josh is also most fussy at nights and having to try and put Tyler down for the night and deal with Josh at the same time was hard. PLUS, I am still way hormonal from having the baby, so I cry for dumb things (okay so I am a girl and do that with or without being pregnant). I did call some of my friends on Wednesday and Thursday and that really helped. A couple of my friends from my ward came over and visited and that helped too. So I will just have to do things like that when Tony has to work nights or I start getting down.
It is funny how anxious I get some times. Like I don't know how I will deal with the future...it is weird. I had the same thing after I had Tyler. A little baby blues I guess. I know it is the hormone's and I just want to make sure that it doesn't get worse and turn into postpartum depression. I know that talking helps, so I need to make sure and talk to people, especially other mom's, and stay positive. A Pepsi would probably also help too. I little caffeine to give me a little kick in the afternoons. It is funny how much having a baby changes everything, literally everything.

My boys...that sounds good.

Things are going pretty good these days. We are starting to get into a routine and for the most part things are good. We had some family in town this past weekend and it was lots of fun having them here. Tyler loves playing with the boys and I always love chatting with my cousins. I had a cousin get sealed on Tuesday and it was great seeing the Grover's and being able to go to the sealing. I guess there are benefits of not producing enough milk, then you can take your kids to grandma's with a bottle and then go do something by your self. I am trying to think of the good things with not being able to nurse well, that way it doesn't totally bum me out. But because of that I got to go to the sealing, and it was beautiful.
Today I had to take Joshua to the doctors because at his two week appointment he hadn't gotten back up to his birth weight, so she wanted to make sure he was gaining weight okay. Well, he gained weight, a lot of weight. He weighed in at 9 pounds. A week ago he was 7 pound 13 ounces. She said I wasn't feeding him enough, and now I am feeding him too much. I can't win. But she also said that he looked a little tongue tied, so she cut his little skin under his tongue. She said that maybe that is why he doesn't latch very well. I guess we will see if he starts nursing a little better. You totally forget how tiring it is waking up every two to three hours to feed a baby. I am so very tired at nights. It isn't too bad during the day because I have so much to do and get my second wind, but during the night is hard stuff. Luckily Tony's last day of work for the week is tomorrow, so he will be able to help out more during the nights. That will be nice...I can't wait.

2 week check up

Joshua had is two week check up today. He also got circumcised today, so sad. We had this done at the hospital with Tyler, but our doctor told us that they charge like $2000 to do it at the hospital and she can do a lot cheaper at her office, so we chose to do that. Tony went with Josh and I stayed with Tyler in the room, and Tony said that Josh did really good. He has been sleeping extra today and I hope that he feels better tomorrow. He hasn't gain his birth weight back yet so we need to give him more formula. That was a little discouraging because I was hoping that my milk was coming in better and so we wouldn't have to do as much formula. But I guess I was wrong. So I have to take him in to the doctors in a week to have him weighed. He is about 50% in weight and head, but about 70% in height. Over all doing good, just need to feed him more.

Getting into a groove

Things over all are doing pretty good. Tony got to take this week off too, so that is so nice for me. Tyler's molars are still hurting him and now he has a big canker sore on his tongue from biting it. So his whole mouth is just full of pain. It is so sad. He doesn't like to take medicine, so we have had to force it in him. That is always tons of fun. Hopefully his mouth will feel better by next week when Tony has to go back to work.
Tyler loves his brother so much. The first thing he does when he wakes up is asked where brother is. Then he loves to watch him while he sleeps and give him loves. Every once in a while he asks if he can take brother, but that hasn't happened yet, nor will it ever. But it still is cute that he asks. He is such a good big brother and I totally knew that he would be.
I got released from my calling in the Young Women's organization on Saturday. I had been in the Young Women's for about three and a half years, so it was probably about time. I was starting to feel like I needed a change, but I wasn't sure if that was what I really wanted or if I was just annoyed with everything while I was pregnant. I guess this is my answer. They haven't given me another calling yet, but I am sure just tons of people are begging to have me in their organization with a brand new baby. It will probably be a little while before I get a new calling. It will be interesting to see what happens.
My cousin Brandy and her family are coming to stay with us this weekend. It is always fun when they are here, I just hope that I don't let it over whelm me and I can just take care of me and Joshua. I tend to think that everything needs to be perfectly clean and organized when I have company, but I think that this time some things are just going to have to be semi-perfect -- and that is okay!

It's getting better and better

I decided to go and buy a nipple shield to see if that would help Josh latch on better, and boy did it work. He does so much better with that and it has given me a lot more confidence in the whole nursing process. I did read that using one might make it harder for the baby to get enough milk, so I am not sure if that is going to be a problem. I will have to look more into it and see what I find out. My sister had to use one the whole time she nursed her first baby, so I don't think that it should be a problem to use it. I guess we will find out.
Tyler seems to be doing a little better. He slept a little better last night, he only woke up once, so that was good. I thought that I was going to go crazy with how he was acting, but now maybe I will keep my sanity, just maybe. Josh seems to be having some gas and constipation problems, so that hasn't been fun. I hope that with Josh nursing more that he will start feeling a little better.
We went to Tony's work today and showed off Josh and got some milk. It was nice to get out for a little bit. Maybe tomorrow we will go to Costco, good times.

Today was a little better

Today has been better. I was able to get Josh to latch on one side twice and even once on the other side. So I am feeling a little better about things. He still had to get topped off with formula, but at least he latched on and got some of the good stuff. I guess we will have to see what happens tomorrow. He really is a great baby and is doing really good.
Tyler has been having a really hard time sleeping these past couple of days. Even naps, he would wake up crying and not telling us what was wrong. It was really frustrating that he was waking up more then Josh and we were having to deal with Tyler all night long. Finally yesterday he told us that his teeth hurt. I thought that he might have a molar coming in, so that is why we asked about his mouth. But then he said it was on the other side that I thought it should be on. So we called the dentist today and Tony took him in. The dentist said that everything looks really good, but he has four molars coming in at the same time. He said that is probably why he's been waking up and why he hasn't been eating very well. So that really sucks for Tyler. I was beginning to think that this was how Tyler was dealing with having a new baby in the house and it was really driving me crazy. Now that I know that it is his molars, I am a lot more sympathetic to his cries. Hopefully they will come in quick so that he can get back to being the happy kid that we all know and love.

The trama continues

Well...she came last night and tried to help me. She did help and he did latch on one side really good and then he would have nothing to do with the other side. What is up with that. So she tried all her tricks and he ended up latching on for like a minute and then wouldn't have anything else to do with it. I guess he does something funny with his tongue so that he can't latch, it's weird. So, how am I doing today trying to do this by my self? Not good. I haven't been able to get him to latch on at all today. I have been pumping like a champ to try and get my supply up, but I have only been able to pump like an ounce at a time, if that. I don't know what to do? Do I call my lactation lady back? Do I call someone else and see if they can do something different? Am I just not going to be able to nurse him like I would like? I am so emotional and this is just so hard. I know that their is nothing wrong with formula or giving your baby the bottle, but I really thought that I would be able to nurse better with this baby. He really is such a good baby, and I guess if the worse thing is that I have to pump and give him formula in a bottle, then I am pretty lucky. I just want to be able to nurse so badly!